Since becoming a mama 4.5 years ago I have known this day would come. The day my little baby would start preschool. The day he would step out into the world. The day that all of the work Jeremy and I have put into building and shaping his character would very soon be met by different personalities, different viewpoints, different adults, different kids and different surroundings. It came so fast. It’s so cliché I know, but where in the world has the time gone.
We enjoy reading to Brecken and Annabelle and there is a book we have that I can never get through without tearing up. It’s kind of a joke in our household. “Oh look, mom’s crying over this book again. What a bawl bag.” The book is called If I Could Keep You Little by Marianne Richmond. If you haven’t read it yet, I highly recommend it (with a side of Kleenex of course). The book goes through the life of a child up until their graduation day and points out different ways the child would fail to experience the joys of growing up if parents were allowed to keep their children little.
Though I know that starting preschool will be very difficult for my mama heart, I know it is the very best thing for Brecken. I am confident he will love his classmates, his teacher and his school. Brecken will actually be attending the same school Jeremy and I went to, and we personally know a lot of the teachers, administration and staff, so that is a relief.
The number one thing I tried to do leading up to this day is plant Jesus so firmly in Brecken’s heart that he would always ALWAYS feel his presence. I can’t be there with Brecken all day every day anymore. But I hope he knows that he is never alone. My anxiety about Brecken starting school is very high, but I am trying to remind myself the same thing I want Brecken to know- God is with me, Jesus is for me, and I am not alone.
“If I could keep you little, I’d keep you close to me. But then I’d miss you growing into who you’re meant to be.” (If I Could Keep You Little by Marianne Richmond).