The wind rushes through my hair and I look over and see Annabelle’s dimples dig deep into her cheeks. Smiling from ear to ear at her Daddy, her curls fly back as we drive together down to Butterfly Field. Brecken sits between Jeremy and I. He is starting to look so tall and grown up. Our time together on dirt roads in our side-by-side four wheeler are truly the most special times in my life right now. I’m sure some people wouldn’t understand the appeal, but to me, there is nowhere else I would rather be.
We purchased our side-by-side a month after moving to our Acreage of Grace and it was the best decision for our family (this is not an ad haha). I think I love it more than anyone in my family. I just love being able to smell the fresh air and watch the sunset. I love that the wind is so loud that the kids just sit back and watch God’s creation around them. Nobody is asking me to get them more milk or find them a toy. I’m not worried about cleaning the kitchen or folding the laundry. I’m focused on the outdoors and the smells and sounds of nature, and I truly feel in those moments that I am right where God intends me to be.
I have spent a lot of time in my life trying to figure out what in the world I am supposed to be doing here. I changed my major three times in college and went to three different colleges before finally deciding what I “wanted to be when I grew up”. I have a Journalism degree that I worked HARD for. I busted my buns in non-paid internships to impress people to try to land my dream job. I landed my dream job only to walk away from it a year later because I missed home. And after years of wondering if I messed up big time, driving down these dirt roads of home, I know I made the right decision to move back.
Some people may think that I make rash decisions or don’t think things through, but for me, I just really trust my gut feeling. I believe that God has given me a sense of direction and no matter how much I could possibly screw that up, I believe that He is leading me home.
Where is your happy place? Where do you feel most at home? Do more of that. Go there. Spend time with those people. Smell those smells. Taste those tastes. Dream those dreams. We have one life. We might as well live it well!